Born to Die

There's a girl ( it could be a boy) & she's driving home alone, a chilly winter night. The windows are down, the music is muted by the wind in the background, & she's just driving. she's tired... And her mind is just all over the place, like it always is. Thoughts here & there, thinking about the prior week, what's ahead for her. & it occurs to her to just take her hands off the wheel- but she doesn't. Then she starts thinking, how peaceful would it be if I just laid back, relaxed, let go, and have the cold air rock her to sleep? Then she decides she's just tired of thinking, she's tired of having to be concerned with everything- not in an angsty way, but just because she's over all that. & just as easily as she decided to not think anymore- she doesn't even think what would happen when 'she woke up' (wherever that may be). She finally reaches this deserted road that leads to her house. She puts all the windows down, the car on cruise, closes her eyes, & let's go... Falling into an endless sleep.

These are the thoughts I come up with on my late night drives home from school, when I'm alone. Don't worry people- I'm not suicidal- far from it actually. But I do think about death. Honestly, I think people are scared to talk about death. (Kinda like a karma thing I guess? Talk out loud about something too much & gravity just takes a new spin) and those people that do think about it, don't talk about it out loud, because people might think they'll need to be put on pills.
But death is part of life, & thinking or talking about it should be just as normal as thinking about where you'll be at the age of 30, or how many kids you'll have someday.
Hasn't it ever occurred to think what would happen if you decide to just 'fall into an endless sleep'? How people would react? Who would mourn, what people would think of you, what you left behind?
Okay, I'm probably scaring some of you now, so enough about dying.
Here's a song that has been stuck in my head lately & I thought it tied in perfectly with this topic: "Born to Die" by Lana Del Rey.
*(just for the sake of, I believe we were born to live, live for God and find our destiny by making our fate. But that's a topic for another day.)
Much love and life,
CamilaP
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