Too much.

my head's been spinning in circles lately. my brain has been unstoppable. there's been so much on my mind. i want it to end- but then i don't. i wish life was easier. i wish it wasn't so hard. i wish God could just enlighten me, and not let this happen. If this isn't suppose to happen, then why let it happen. i'm throwing out so many thoughts right now, and my apology for not making any sense. i'm so tired of it all.

why. why. why. why. why.

i hate asking life that question, because it pointless. its like asking a rock to be your pet.

Hope & Unity

This week, my school had spirit week, and it has been amazingly fun! but on tuesday, November 9th, the whole school gets some terrible news that the father of a very known/popular family at our school has just died. (motorcycle accident- so it was VERY unexpected)It . was. Devastating. I Had never witnessed silence quite so loud. the whole school was in such a mournful state. no one talked except a few"ohmygosh" and "I can't believe this". even i myself was in such huge shock. to think that that family left their house that morning thinking "alright! spirit week!...see you later dad" and return to ... no dad. it was just unbelievable. when something like that happens, it makes you contemplate on life and just how short it is. how overwhelming it can be at times, and just how beautiful it still is. i think so many people take too much time worrying about little things like, how does my hair look? what is he going to think of me? i feel ugly (after school that day, all the representatives for 9, 10, 11, and 12 grade classes got together and decided that we can take one day off of spirit week and dedicate it to the family who lost a loved one. and everyone agreed. the whole high school (even middle school) came dressed in white (to celebrate life and a significance that the father is in a better place now) and brought roses and donations. then we all assembled in the gym for a time of prayer. just seeing the school unified like that was amazing. it was a phenomenon that has never occurred at my school ever before. it gives you hope that people do care, even when you think they don't. it gives you a hope that even though people may look mean, or act aggressively or kindly, they all have a heart that has a conscience. my words probably don't do much, but this whole experience has just made me think alot. much love, Mila

Uh-Oh

Hello darlings,
just thought I would share some information of usual boring days.
So last Friday, I had lost my retainer! I was freaking out because that means I would be wearing no retainer for a total of 5 days!!! You see, that wouldn't be such a big deal if it wasn't for the fact that one of my friends had to put braces on again because her teeth moved! And she said she wore her retainer everyday! Oh no! But luckily, my teeth didn't move. So I go to the orthadontists on Monday, and they charge me $75 for my new retainter! And that's slot of money believe it or not! So here I was today, laying down on the floor studying, and I happen to notice something under my bed- my retainer box. I couldn't believe it!!! I guess it must have fallen out of my bookbag when I threw it on the floor. But now I feel horrible!!! Ugh. I don't think I'm gonna tell my parents- just to spare them the pain of losing $75 for my irresponsibility! Well at least I know that if I lose this pair of retainers, I won't have to get new ones.
Much love ,
Mila

I {heart} TVD*

I dont know if i've mentioned this yet but

I'M GOING TO MEET IAN SOMERHALDER AND PAUL WESLEY! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

My life will be officially complete ;D

funny story actually- let me tell you:

so there i was, thursday night-watching GLEE, and it's 8:10 and my sister comes downstairs and says to me " aren't you watching Vampire Diaries? " to which my reply is a huge gasp and i flip the channel right away...

during the episode (which was aweeesomee!) i'm texting one of my bff's (Kristen) who's just as obsessed with the show as me. . . OH wait- really fast- listen to this quick story: my friend kristen and i have promised ourselves to go during summertime 2011 to atlanta, georgia and be extras on TVD* and meet Ian somerhalder-ok done.

so there i was, texting kristen like crazy about my the show (messages included : OHMYGOSHHH!/ Ian is soo hot!!/ OHEMGEE caroline!! / holy shiii, did u see that/ I want to be that extra who hands him the lemonade!!! )

so the show ends and ten minutes later, kristen's calling me- our conversation:

Me: Hello?

Kristen: camila, you will never believe what i'm about to tell you.

me: what is it?

kristen: i'm dyyyingg right now!

me: kristen, tell me already!

kristen: Ian somerhalder and Paul wesley are coming to our hottopic at &%$##@ mall!

me: AAAAGGGGHHHH!! kristen are you serious?!-

kristen: yes!

me: ohmy goshhh I'm gona die, kristen i'm seriously dying right now! OHemgee *starts crying tears of joy* im crying kristen! i can't believe this is happening! AGHH, im hyperventilating *starts sweating* i'm so hot! ohmy i need to take off my socks... oh my gosh!

kristen: i knoww!!

......

then next week at school she comes up to me and says "wow, can you believe that just on wednesday, our hopes of meeting Ian were just distant dreams, and now, they're actually happening?!" my response: *tears stinging my eyes because of the overwhelming happiness that has overcome me*

so that's my story guys... and I cannot wait!!

much love to all!!

Mila

*The Vampire Diaries

dot.dot.dot.

Hello my fellow readers!

just wanted to let you know what's been going on lately in my life... (sorry it's personal and not more interesting)

• this has been one of the most hectic/stressful/longest week thus far. i have had the biggest project for english (write a greek tradegy, 3 episodes, 20-25 minutes long; then act it out, have costumes, props, and masks!!) so it has not been very easy for me!
• i have also been doing ACT/PLAN & PSAT testing... i'm gonna need tutoring for the real tests.
• while i was doing those tests^, i missed my chemistry honors class, which is not a class i want to be missing. so i missed 2 days of chemistry, then i get an email from my teacher telling me to get the notes from the powerpoint he has posted online...so here i am, writing down the quantum #'s of an electron/atom, i dont even know what on earth im studying, and i have a test on it the next day! ... and when i go to ask the teacher for help, he was too busy. -_____- worst.study.ever. (in the end, i think i did well though-so that's the bright side of things)
• Great News! because i had to rehearse for the greek play, i had to miss photography club ;( and one of the teachers in charge happened to pass by me the day before and asked me if i was going to be at the meeting; to which i sadly replied "no." he kept questioning me on why i couldn't make it, and that i should really try because...listen to this...I'm one of the best there! (I'm really good)! that made my day :D
• then the day after the meeting i go up to the other teacher in charge of photo club and asked him if there was another assignment, (he said no... we'll be having a picnic instead, which i sadly cannot attend because .... *) and he said "i was like 'oh, Camila's not here today' ". . . i guess that means he was excited to see what i had in store for them.
• i'm starting to see GLEE now...starting with season 1... i'm on disc 3 now. it's seriously hilarious! a total muuussstttt see!!
• i'm reading the Harry Potter books! i'm so excited!! pro's: they're amazing- DUH! and there's alot of them... which i love! con's: because this week has been so hectic, i haven't been able to read at my normal pace / i highly dislike that i already have the movies stuck in my head; i'm not saying the movies aren't amazing or anything-because they are- but the problem is is that i can't even imagine everything in my own perspective-what the people look like, what places look like, etc. (for example: with twilight, i was able to come up with my own perspective on things, imagine what everything looked like, come up with my own images...and then when i see the movie, i notice if my mental images were displayed well.-with HP, that's not possible...even when i try, i still see the movie in my head -___-) but i will give the directors and set designers and the whole HP movie enterprise props for making it SO well! everything in the book is displayed perfectly in the movies ...(unlike twilight). pro: i cant't wait to get to the 6th book, where i'll be able to imagine some things on my own... except the people of course (aside from any new characters that might be visible).

that's enough for this post! to read the best of it all, go to the next post titled "I{heart}VD".

Much Love, Mila

Resolution(s)

i'm tired of it all.

people step all over me like I'm no more than dried up leaves on the floor.

it's my fault really; I am waayyy too nice.

i need to be stronger, more hard-minded.

i can't let people just do this to me anymore.

i won't let them.

i'm gonna change, in a good way.

not completely change,

but just in a way that people won't bother to mess with me.

yea, that's what I'll do.

from now on, if I don't feel like helping you I'm gonna say "NO".

just because

you couldn't do it, when your excuse was

"i'm cleaning up",

when truth is, you never do! and I

know you have friends over, so really I'm just doing

all your work for you, while you have fun at the getty

you said you were too busy doing HW at, so you couldn't come over.

BS.

No, i won't be a B*tch, i'm just not going to let people

throw me around, that's all.

that's my resolution. forevermore.

SHOES!!

so i was in urbanoutfitters returning the highwaisted shorts that were too small, and as i was walking out, i came across these gorgeous booties!!!!

and i am totally getting them! i made the mistake of not getting the last shoes i wanted (but even if i wanted them, $130 is not in my budget. at all) but these, i can totally do, especially since im in looooovve with them and i know I'm gonna use them everyday of every friggin day of my life!!! so yea, i just wanted to let you guys all know that :)

if you love them as much as i do, go to urbanoutfitters.com =)

uhoh, just as i was writing this blog, i went to urbanoutfitters.com to get the photo and i came across these shoes!!

so tell me invisible followers, which should i go for...? well, i actually dont really like these ^ , so the first ones it is!!! :D

BUT look at these!

but they're Jeffrey Campbell, and i cannot afford such a gorgeous brand. I'm not saying that i wish i was rich and that I'm an ungrateful person, but sometimes having a little extra money can make you happy :) lol

til next time, Mila

My British Peeps

random fact about moi: i love the British accent! it's honestly very romantic, and the way it sounds makes me want to actually hear the person talk. i love it! so, here are a list of some people i love to hear talk. *p.s. the Australian accent is another love of mine, but the British accent tops it.

**to stop the music on my blog from playing, scroll all the way down and press 'pause'**

Adele (love her singing voice as well!)

Liam Hemsworth *Australian accent, still gorgeous-him and miley broke up! lol*

Daniel Radcliffe- how can i NOT include him? *he's so pale, lol*

Just Say it?

Monday, Sept. 6

If you haven't read my previous post (click here for the one I'm
talking about) then you'll be a little lost with this one because its
kind of part 2. Remember when I said how I wished I could've told my
dad "that I didn't want to go"? Well, I'm kinda glad I didn't. I had a
blast, and it turned out to be a lot better than I hoped. *except the
part where I went to the waterpark with both a cold and mother natures
monthly gift -____-*
Sometimes, things happen for a reason, and you've got to let them be.
That was just a short little note I wanted to share with you all. I
hope you it made you smile =)

Just Say It!

Tues. August 31.

Have you ever felt that you just can't tell someone something because

it'll dissapoint them? (I know, deja vu to another post...but this

ones different). In relationship to a child & parent at least. Like

when your mom picks out this big pink dress that has ruffles on the

bottom and big puffy sleeves? Or when your dad picks out those

sneakers that are so not cool and two sizes too big? That happens to

me all the time. Yea, it might not to you, and I understand (my

sisters like that). I tell myself sometimes I'm just too nice. And I

know I am, I've been told. But people also tell me I shouldn't be,

because being a nice person isn't going to help in life. Of course,

you need to be kind to people, but you shouldn't let them step all

over you, is what I'm trying to say. My point: I did that again. I

always do. To my parents at least. To my friends I'll usually be

completely honest, but I just can't dissappoint my parents. I want to

say "no I didn't really want to go" but I said the opposite. I thought

I hinted enough that I didn't want to go, but I guess it didn't work.

Hints don't really work unless its for a riddle. Piece of advice: just

say the truth. Don't hold back. . . . I should take my own advice.

Life is a Decision

Tuesday, August 31.

Don't you wish you could be in charge of your own life?

Determine what you want to do, where you want to go, how you want to do it.

If only life was that easy, but it isn't. Its quite the opposite. Yea,

you chose what career you want to pursue , what college you want to go

to, but it always comes down to the decisions of other that just might

determine where you go. If a colllege doesn't accept you, there's goes

that decision. I wish I could glimpse into the future, see what it

would be like, if its really everything I hope it will be. I wonder if

ill live the perfect life I hope to live. But I can't do that. But ill

have to wait, "good things come to those who wait", I hope it works

out for me.

That's something that was on my mind today. Just some last words:You determine your future. No one can predict your life for you.In the end, it ALL comes down to YOU.So trust in yourself, believe that you can do it, and it will be done.*I think I may have sounded a little contrary... but that was kind of the point).

Con mucho amor .

Hello Hello

its so good to be typing in this small box where i can 'compose' a daily

word for you all! ive missed blogger, even though ive only been gone

for about 3 days. but i wanted to tell you all how everything was going for me

because i seriously only have about 4-- 3 minutes now to type up some lil

things that have been going on. well the first day of school is always fun huh?

not exactly... but i learn to love the little things in life. this year might just go by

really slow. why? because {2 minutes} i have the randomest people in mu classes.

its seriously odd. aside from that, it isnt as exciting as last year. this year is supposedly my

"slack year" {1 minute!} and i can already see how im going to be falling asleep!

but i will put up with it and let you know some extra details at the end of the

week! OH, and theres a harry potter weekend on on abcfamily this weekend! {no time!!}

and i hope to be able to watch it!

Love you all,

Mila

Time & Prime

So there's only 2 more days til my school year starts once again, and I just wanted to inform you guys that I probably won't be writing as much anymore, which really breaks my heart and makes me want to throw myself on the floor and cry. ( a little exxagerrated, i know, but it's practicly true, i love blogging!) but for sure, I'll make sure to at least post 1 jotting a week... most probably on Sundays (if im not stuck with some dumb project.) so for now, i leave (not forever) you all with my regards and my little goodbye because i will be back, no worries.

Oh, and there's this movie that I wanted to recommend to you all, it's called Prime and its this romantic comedy and such...but it's different than all the romantic comedies you see... its not the stereotypical love story, its actually based more on reality than hollywood; and I'm gonna stop now because I dont want to give anymore away. but I definately recommend it because it has a beautiful (real) interpretation on following your heart (but let your intelligence {?} be your guide).

til next time,

(I'm seriously aching right now writing this...but I think its more that I'm starting school then not being able to blog, even though I will miss blogging, but now I'm just acting as if I'm quiting, oh my ... )

Mila

3 Letters- D.I.Y. *

Look at how my new shorts turned out! those are just the first pair... the second ones, I'm confused about what to do with them. But I just wanted to show you guys how easily something can be done for a much cheaper price. I ripped them just a bit, and I'm still planning on ripping them some more, so when I'm completely done with them, I'll post another photo!

Til then,

Mila

* do.it.yourself.

Hello & Goodbye.

Hello everyone! its feels great to be back and writing some jottings for you all! sometimes i wonder if ill ever be founded (if that makes sense)... but eventually with time, why wont i be?? it only took my sister 2 years to have about 7 followers, and if it takes me that long, well let it be then. there's not much to say... i just wanted to give you an update for this coming school semester(s). because i will be starting school now, i will either be studying, doing homework, working on a project, or trying to get some sleep from all the work I've been doing. I hope you all don't feel as if i forgot you, because trust me, i wouldn't have! but if I'm fortunate enough to not have a project assignment on the weekend, then I'll post as many thoughts that come to mind. and of course, if i ever finish homework on time, I'll post as well!

much love to all,

Mila

My LOVELIES, part 2

So, remember how bummed i was that i got my shorts and they didnt fit me? and i was totally depressed and super sad... (i almost cried, literally)?

well, I prayed to the wonderful God above me aaaannnndddd

I went to a thrift store and they had the same exact ones!!!! like seriously, only in movies does that happen!! i was sooo excited and i also got some other high waisted shorts/jeans too. (they're both actually jeans... but im "DIY") so, I just thought you might all love to hear the wonderful news! oh, and just a little reminder that God really does hear even the simplest of prayers :)

So once i cut them and make them my beautiful beauties that i know they'll be, ill upload a picture for y'all.

with much love (and happiness!),

Mila

Thank Heavens for Fitting Rooms.

Good news! I got my shorts. Bad news: they.don't.fit. ); I'm so sad. I was dying for them, and they didn't fit. I guess I'll just have to do it the old fashion way- go to a thrift shop and by myself some old jeans, cut them, and modernize them. . . I'm still sad though, like really sad. But sometimes, that's just life right? You can't always get the bright side up. sometimes you just get the bad apple. BLEGH. I always have that issue- I need to try something on, I can't be guessing what size I am, because it doesn't work well for me like that. This isn't the first time I've ordered something w/o trying them on and it didn't fit me. See, I actually had the opportunity to go and try them on, I even had them on hold at the store! But I don't have a car, and sometimes, even though you're only 60 blocks away, your parents are just toooooooo tired to wait in the car for 10 minutes while you try them on, and purchase them. Great. And then when you have the opportunity to get a car the summer going into junior year, they just say, "We'll see." I seriously dislike those words from the very bottom of my heart. I mean, if I have a car, life will be so much simpler and easier. I'll be able to go see my friends more often and I won't have to depend on someone else (for a ride...or anything else anymore.) Eventually, my parents will see how wonderful it is! But then came the big question: How am I gonna pay gas? ... a job? ugh. I so don't want one. But I'll have to see. I feel bad having to depend on my parents for gas as well, especially for how much I'm going to be driving ;) well, I hope you all enjoyed a daily dose of my life. I hope to hear some different P.O.V.'s?

Until next time,

Mila

.My Lovelies.

I just ordered these shorts... highwaisted gorgeousness. I can't wait to get them in! I just hope they fit well! >.< please pray they do!!!
If you wish to purchase them click here

Con Mucho Amor,
Mila

El Español

Guess what everyone!? I'm almost done with spanish! so exciting! even though spanish was my language, the same way many people dont enjoy studying english, i dont like studying spanish. I thought I'd just post a little message of personal information. lol.

-Mila

Camera & Car

Well, i just got my new SLR camera the other day, and I'm so excited to have it! i can't wait till i can use it reeeally well, like outdoors in a beautiful garden! But even if i had the chance of going to a garden, i can't. why?! because i don't have a car! here i am, at home, just stuck here doing nothing but stuffing my face with food, sleeping, and doing chores. -___- not the funnest thing to be doing during the summer. i can't wait till next year! I'm praying for my car. actually, i dont even need "my" car, i just need "a" car to get me out of the house. now i can sorta feel what those jailers live in.
well, thats the update with my life, which i still love very much, even though im kinda trapped in my beautiful house.
mucho amor, Mila